Feeling

Feeling nothing but a mouth full of gratitude

Slipping through the fingers of the shadow

Sitting in the moonlight, stargazing

Imagining a life I could never lead

Kissing the lips of a phantom

Feeling so completely twisted

My friends keep insisting

That love is worth discovering

Falling into sleep

I keep seeing the face of an unknown love

Walking along the autumn path

Trying to clear my head

Breathing in the crisp cool air

Staring at the crimson trees

Thinking things through

All the way through into the afternoon

Fighting feelings of insecurity

Slowly fading into obscurity

Living, though half alive

Holding on to hope

Til the sands of time are emptied.

Nyx

Tongue-tied, trying to make the best out of a bad situation

You called just to say you've had enough of me

Tongue-tied, I didn't know what to say

I didn't know how to respond to your despondent misbehavior

Distraught, distracted with thoughts no longer relevant

Sitting in dissonance--starry eyed innocence

Tongue-tied, my heart it died

It fell into the hands of Nyx & thrown into the river Styx.

Shadow Man

Despondent

Non-insistent

Always constant

Venturing down empty corridors of broken promises

The vague disarray of figures running to & fro leave me bewildered

Sinking under silken thunder running my fingers through the air

Trying not to stare into the carnal eyes of uncertainty

The certainty leaves me broken in the hands of the shadow man

When I act like this, like I'm above it all I fall further into the abyss

Further into the shadow lying in my bed

Despondent

Self-sufficient

Always constant

I venture down empty corridors of hollow promises

Sinking further into the hands of the shadow man.

The Floor

Open the door

Hit the floor

If you want to be together

Than hit the floor

I have a tendency not to make things easy

If you want me walk through the open door

Something's changed, I can smell it in the air

Is it the weather or do I care?

If you want us to be together than prepare to hit the floor

I have a tendency not to make life easy, or so I'm told

Love, don't cry

These are just the basics I 'm telling you

Before we go any further prepare to hit the floor

For in time we're bound to end up on the floor together.

More Deserving

What you're asking is more than I can give

What you deserve is more than I can muster

You're an amazing guy with a sense of humor like no other

You can brighten the darkest of days with just a smile

What you're needing is more than I can bear

I can't stand to see you falter on my account

I don't wish to be a hindrance to your joyful disposition

What you're asking is more than I can give

What you deserve is more than I can bear

So reluctantly I let you go

In the name of love I set you free

Into the hands of a more deserving man.

Hollow

Reaching out to me in the dark

Trying your best to save me from myself

Calling out to me in hopes of turning things around

Captive to the thunder taken over by my blunder

Reaching out to me in the dark

You keep calling like a lark

Trying to leave me with a spark of hope

Left on an island unto myself

Venturing further from sanity--not enough to kill me, but enough to remove all sense of clarity

Reaching out to me from the dark

I feel the shadow sinking in

I feel the knife pushing deeper in my chest

Left broken in the comfort of the dark

I reach to an invisible hand & find myself to be nothing but a hollow man.

Scrutiny

Standing in the dark, hiding in closets of despair

Trying to quiet the chaos running rampant in my head

Dealing with demon's I've kept under lock & key

Sitting, kneeling in the closet crying for no particular reason

I can think of no better reason to runaway than trying to outrun a crooked past

Afraid of getting too close, of letting someone in

A monster when exposed to the moonlight

I cringe at the thought of being understood & accepted

I shrink away at the thought of letting my defenses down

Afraid of letting the light touch my skin

Content with hiding in shadows, I won't allow myself to feel relief from the scrutiny of the world.